I started writing this post about two weeks ago but for some reason, I found it hard to finish then, now it’s not hard anymore, even though the ending is quite different than I imagined. 😢So, the beginning of this is written after being in Indonesia for two weeks and ending now when I have already returned home, back to Finland.
I have now lived on this small Indonesian Gili Air island about two weeks. Last week it suddenly hit me, I realized that the biggest dream that I have ever had is now a reality. I have dreamt about working under Asian sun teaching yoga and enjoying the ocean view and the perfect weather.
I teach yoga six days a week (about 7-10 hours) in a place called H2O yoga and meditation center. I also do karma yoga two hours daily and this covers my living at the center.
I have now lived on this small Indonesian Gili Air island about two weeks. Last week it suddenly hit me, I realized that the biggest dream that I have ever had is now a reality. I have dreamt about working under Asian sun teaching yoga and enjoying the ocean view and the perfect weather.
I teach yoga six days a week (about 7-10 hours) in a place called H2O yoga and meditation center. I also do karma yoga two hours daily and this covers my living at the center.
One thought stopped me thinking about life a few times. At first, the thought took me over like a tsunami, this was probably two days after my arrival. I sat on the beach enjoying the warm weather and the ocean realizing that everything that I had ever dreamt of has now come true. And once I realized it fully I was so incredibly happy. But… What happens then? What happens after everything that you have ever dreamt of actually come true? Do I have to think about new dreams? I shared this fear with my friend and she said it so wisely, now you just have to live your dream, you don’t need new dreams. ❤
Every day on this island is like a dream to me. I keep staring the ocean and I feel like I have to pinch myself so I can feel that this is true. I mean everything that led me into this situation has been like a dream to me and it all happened so fast.
Every day on this island is like a dream to me. I keep staring the ocean and I feel like I have to pinch myself so I can feel that this is true. I mean everything that led me into this situation has been like a dream to me and it all happened so fast.
After first two weeks, I started to feel like home on the island but still, I was also so restless and unsure about the future and whether I do want to stay there for the next 7 months or not. I was sure that it was mostly about the fact that I was missing my routines and was hoping that those routines would give me balance and stability to live there. So I focused on my yoga practice and studying more about yoga and going to the gym regularly. Still feeling restless somehow.
On Sunday 5.8. after being on the island exactly one month I talked with my boss about my future in the center and we agreed that I will continue to teach there for the next 7 months. Which would mean that I’d get more responsibilities to also teach on retreats and workshops. I have to admit that after this conversation I still was unsure about this decision but then thought it’s only 7 months and those 7 months would be such a great opportunity for me. It was all that I had ever dreamt of; teaching yoga daily.
On Sunday 5.8. after being on the island exactly one month I talked with my boss about my future in the center and we agreed that I will continue to teach there for the next 7 months. Which would mean that I’d get more responsibilities to also teach on retreats and workshops. I have to admit that after this conversation I still was unsure about this decision but then thought it’s only 7 months and those 7 months would be such a great opportunity for me. It was all that I had ever dreamt of; teaching yoga daily.
The day before I had a minor sunstroke and on that Sunday evening I was thinking that I do have to eat something after fasting for one day even though I still didn’t feel that good. At 6.30 PM I hopped on my bike and cycled to one of my favorite restaurants on the island and found out that it was closed. I felt disappointed when I headed to the beach road where guys from my favorite coffee place were wondering where I had been for the past few days. I continued riding by the ocean to the other end of the island because I suddenly got this urge for french fries and I knew just where to get the best ones. I sat on the beach eating even though wind on that night was kind of rough. I ate my fries reluctantly thinking they aren’t that good after all.
My office view at Orong Villages
When I left the beach I thought that I had to go to the grocery store because I wasn’t feeling that good and I hoped that Sprite would help me. I drove to Siti Shop (island’s supermarket) and realized it was closed. Damn, does everything have to be closed today, I was wondering. Next small shop was nearby so I decided to go there. I was searching through the drink collection unable to decide on what do I want after all. Then all of a sudden the building started to shake. I realized immediately what was going on rushing to the door thinking that I’m good here. Luckily the clerk threw me out of there. The earthquake just kept on going, afterward, somebody told it lasted for one minute. I don’t know how long it took but it was really strong. It felt like it was shaking a little at first and then being harsher and in a way more demanding. My bike fell on the street and then the electricity went off, after that the earth under me was moving in a way that I fell on the street also. And then there was nothing. I waited for a while and took my bike and my phone so I would have a flashlight to find my way home. Luckily I was able to send one message home (to Finland) saying that there was strong quake and I was ok and soon after that phones didn’t work anymore.
I had only about 200 meters to go home and there was minor chaos on the way. A concrete fence of one building was in the middle of the street, buildings were damaged. Outside one shop there was a young girl who was crying dreary. I stopped and asked if she was ok. She assured she was but was worried about her mother. I tried to comfort her telling that I was sure that her mother was just fine. Then I made my way home. Yon from our Good Earth Cafe was on the street pointing the way with a flashlight telling me that it might not be safe to go back to H2O now. I turned around and bumped into Jeneva, our new yoga teacher, who had just arrived H2O a few days ago. She had hurt her leg and didn’t have any shoes on. She told me that she had been in the main house when the quake started. There were some damages on the ceiling of her room and she had had difficulties to get out of the building. Leaning into each other we headed on to our neighbor's yard where we found other people as well, locals and tourists. Sitting on the ground scared and shaking we felt the first of the hundreds of aftershocks, wondering whether it’s possible that the electricity pole on the street could fall on us.
A little while later we heard our boss Jon's voice on the street from the H2O direction. We went to talk to him. Jon told us there is this hill about 100 meters from the street and he knew that some people went there. And if we wanted, he could show us the way. Our island is almost flat and this hill couldn’t be more than 10 meters high but still open space felt a suitable place where we could spend our night. The field was full of people; we found our friend Becci and our yoga teacher Clare there. Quite quickly we decided to spend our night there, later I found out that the field was cows pasture. 😉 While in there we were admiring the starry sky and countless shooting stars. Soon wondering about the silence on the island where usually is not that quiet because at least the roosters were always telling each other where they were. Sometimes the silence was broken by horses neigh which made us wonder what they have just sensed which we don’t know anything about. Then it was all quiet again. After a while, we heard a wave of waves, and probably everyone was thinking, that hopefully, that rush will not come near us in the form of a tsunami. At some point, the silence was broken by the dog barking from Lombok. In addition to our worry, was the temperature which might drop under 20 degrees, which might be a bit cold when wearing only shorts and top. Clare and Becci decided to go back to their houses and get some blankets for us. After that all of us four settled down on one round blanked, which diameter was probably 1,2 meters, trying to get some sleep. There were aftershocks constantly and in between those shocks you could feel how the earth trembled. It felt like it never settled down. Still, I think all of us managed to sleep that night.
At dawn, everybody was leaving from the hill. We headed to Becci’s and Clare’s. Once there we found out that there is a risk of those places collapsing at any time, so Jeneva and I decided to head back to H2O immediately and collect our stuff. H2O was there but the main house was quite badly damaged. I got my things out of my room and after that, we all gathered outside and had a morning tea. Becci came back a while later chatting with some of the guests and making plans on how to get to Lombok or where from there. I, on the other hand, had no clue what I was going to do. And I have to say I was numb. I didn’t speak anything because I couldn't. Fortunately, Becci was demanding me to make decision telling that it’s my well-being that we are talking about now, it's my life, it’s about staying alive. So I packed my luggage and said goodbye to everyone and there we were, ready to leave. The way to the harbor was chaotic; hotel which was under construction had major cracks all over, collapsed buildings and unfortunately dead body. Harbor was also chaos with all the people trying to find a boat and their way out from the island. It took us probably about two hours before we got on to a boat. Unfortunately, I have to say that some people were smelling money in the situation we were in. Meaning that our despair and panic were also taken advantage of. I understand that our situation was and is far better than theirs but still I was sad to witness this. The boat ride that normally costs 12 000 rupiahs was now 50 000. On Lombok, the situation concerning the help wasn’t any better. Ministery of foreign affairs instructed that local authorities will assist us further but local policemen did not speak any English and they didn’t seem to be that eager to help us; unfortunately. We continued further inland trying to find a bus to the airport.
On the way, we were offered to have private transportation for 1,5 million rupiahs per person (usually private car costs around 350 000-500 000 rupiahs). Finally, we found a bus which had space for us. Even though we found our way out of the harbor I felt sad about the fact how little they cared about us in this situation, hoping it would have been more like “hey, we are in this together”. From the chaos, we eventually got to the airport and to Kuta Lombok, where Becci was holidaying just a week before. When we were there, we thought we had earned a good cup of coffee.
By the cup of coffee, we were thinking about our next move. Or Becci was actually, I was desperately trying to find my way (flight) out from Lombok to Bali; anywhere actually. Connection in that cafe was so poor that I asked my friend from Bali to help me to find a flight for me. She also told me that I’m welcome to spend some time at her house. Finally, after an hour I found a flight to Kuala Lumpur on Tuesday night. Meanwhile, Becci had found us a place to sleep the next night and next we headed to check that place out. It was two-story building and our room was on the ground floor which made us a little tense because we could still feel the aftershock in Kuta Lombok. We were investigating the cracks on the walls deciding that the place probably is just fine for us for that one night. The real issue for us staying there was actual towels or lack of them. 😉 We asked staff to bring us towels and they told us all the towels are in the laundry at that moment but we would get fresh towels the next day. But when you haven’t showered for two days and you had slept on the cows' pasture, this probably is not the thing you want to hear. And because they were reluctant to get us towels from somewhere, we decided that maybe it’s better to stay somewhere else.
The next place was quite far and it was surely kind of hard to find. It was in the middle of the village among the locals. Once we got there we were told that they are fully booked. But they told us that in the same yard there was this one house with a room and Becci negotiate a room for us for 150 000 rupiahs. This deal also included fresh towels. 😊 We settled in fully aware of the aftershocks that could be felt under our feet from time to time. And we could only laugh when we realized there is a mosque in the courtyard less than 50 meters away from our house, which would mean the wake-up call around five in the morning. Still, we were so happy that we found a place and that the place was only one story high and there weren’t any cracks on the walls of that place (and seriously I’ll never look at the cracks on the buildings the same way than before).
Before we crawled into bed that night, we placed all our stuff by the door just in case there is a sudden need to leave the building. A couple of stronger aftershocks woke us up from our sleep and got us outside where also the locals were wondering about the situation. We agreed that maybe we sleep in shifts that night just in case. After 2 AM we decided that maybe we just sleep. All that we had been through was so exhausting that Becci didn’t even hear to the mosque in the morning and I only witness the first seconds of it and then fell asleep again.
By the cup of coffee, we were thinking about our next move. Or Becci was actually, I was desperately trying to find my way (flight) out from Lombok to Bali; anywhere actually. Connection in that cafe was so poor that I asked my friend from Bali to help me to find a flight for me. She also told me that I’m welcome to spend some time at her house. Finally, after an hour I found a flight to Kuala Lumpur on Tuesday night. Meanwhile, Becci had found us a place to sleep the next night and next we headed to check that place out. It was two-story building and our room was on the ground floor which made us a little tense because we could still feel the aftershock in Kuta Lombok. We were investigating the cracks on the walls deciding that the place probably is just fine for us for that one night. The real issue for us staying there was actual towels or lack of them. 😉 We asked staff to bring us towels and they told us all the towels are in the laundry at that moment but we would get fresh towels the next day. But when you haven’t showered for two days and you had slept on the cows' pasture, this probably is not the thing you want to hear. And because they were reluctant to get us towels from somewhere, we decided that maybe it’s better to stay somewhere else.
The next place was quite far and it was surely kind of hard to find. It was in the middle of the village among the locals. Once we got there we were told that they are fully booked. But they told us that in the same yard there was this one house with a room and Becci negotiate a room for us for 150 000 rupiahs. This deal also included fresh towels. 😊 We settled in fully aware of the aftershocks that could be felt under our feet from time to time. And we could only laugh when we realized there is a mosque in the courtyard less than 50 meters away from our house, which would mean the wake-up call around five in the morning. Still, we were so happy that we found a place and that the place was only one story high and there weren’t any cracks on the walls of that place (and seriously I’ll never look at the cracks on the buildings the same way than before).
Before we crawled into bed that night, we placed all our stuff by the door just in case there is a sudden need to leave the building. A couple of stronger aftershocks woke us up from our sleep and got us outside where also the locals were wondering about the situation. We agreed that maybe we sleep in shifts that night just in case. After 2 AM we decided that maybe we just sleep. All that we had been through was so exhausting that Becci didn’t even hear to the mosque in the morning and I only witness the first seconds of it and then fell asleep again.
Our little home in the middle of the village
In the morning I was still unsure where I would head next, but in the end, however, I booked a flight to Finland on Friday. Around 2 PM we headed to the airport so Becci could continue to Bali and me to Kuala Lumpur. At the airport, we met siblings who were sleeping just next to us on that night on the hill and one couple that we met somewhere along the way. And we all had only one goal in mind, to get back home safely.
When I was finally safe in the hotel room in Kuala Lumpur I broke into tears. Not only because I realized that I was safe from the quakes (hopefully) but because I didn’t know what the situation of some people was, people that I’ve met during this month. At first, I was thinking about waiter boy in our Cafe at H2O, who I had barely spoken with but who started to call me his girlfriend and remembered to tell me daily that he loved me. ❤ He left to Lombok day before the quake being little sick and I have no idea how he is now and what is the situation of his family. I’m also worried about other boys as well, all of them were always so funny, telling jokes which I mostly didn’t get but who always made me laugh so hard. They had such good vibes. I also wonder about boys and girls at Orong Villages, who took care of my caffeine needs, always smiling and asking how I was even if I was just passing by them on the beach. Our pineapple lady Hati who came on to Gili Air from Lombok every day to work on the beach. The family who prepared my daily curry portion at Warung ZZZ, whose living room was the restaurant “hall”. Boys at Musa Cookery whose "Hello Finland, how are you?" greetings I can still hear in my head. Not to mention all the wonderful people I did not even have a chance to get to know. In general, all the people who worked on the island had families on Lombok and I can only hope, that people that I know are all alive and that they'll get through this. ❤
When I was finally safe in the hotel room in Kuala Lumpur I broke into tears. Not only because I realized that I was safe from the quakes (hopefully) but because I didn’t know what the situation of some people was, people that I’ve met during this month. At first, I was thinking about waiter boy in our Cafe at H2O, who I had barely spoken with but who started to call me his girlfriend and remembered to tell me daily that he loved me. ❤ He left to Lombok day before the quake being little sick and I have no idea how he is now and what is the situation of his family. I’m also worried about other boys as well, all of them were always so funny, telling jokes which I mostly didn’t get but who always made me laugh so hard. They had such good vibes. I also wonder about boys and girls at Orong Villages, who took care of my caffeine needs, always smiling and asking how I was even if I was just passing by them on the beach. Our pineapple lady Hati who came on to Gili Air from Lombok every day to work on the beach. The family who prepared my daily curry portion at Warung ZZZ, whose living room was the restaurant “hall”. Boys at Musa Cookery whose "Hello Finland, how are you?" greetings I can still hear in my head. Not to mention all the wonderful people I did not even have a chance to get to know. In general, all the people who worked on the island had families on Lombok and I can only hope, that people that I know are all alive and that they'll get through this. ❤
One of the first sane thought, while living in the middle of this chaos, was that I need to get rid of the stuff I don’t need. I don’t know where that came from but it was a very clear and strong idea. It is quite meaningless how much stuff you have if you are dealing with the matter of life and death. And I do have so much more than enough. And even though I am kind of starting point at the moment myself, without a job and a plan, I do want to help these people who have lost everything. And who is completely dependent on the outside support and help. And the thing I’m now talking about is clean drinking water and food. Have you got $10 to spare? You can now also help the people I just told you about. Employees at H2O and their communities that have been affected by the devastation of the recent earthquakes. They all are living in Lombok, some has lost family members, some of their homes either partly or totally, they have only a limited amount of water and food. And because there are aftershocks all the time, there aren’t any guarantees that the situation will settle soon.
What does $10 buy you in Lombok?
How to do it? Just click on the link at the bottom of this post, scroll to the bottom of the page and use the PayPal 'extras' icon to make your donation. Please spread the love. ❤
http://www.h2oyogaandmeditation.com/4-day-unlimited-yoga-packages/
Keep in mind that even the smallest amount of money could be a lifesaver. ❤
What does $10 buy you in Lombok?
- One bag of 20kg cement
- Enough food and water for 20 people
- 10 liters of fuel to run generators
- 3 t-shirts.
How to do it? Just click on the link at the bottom of this post, scroll to the bottom of the page and use the PayPal 'extras' icon to make your donation. Please spread the love. ❤
http://www.h2oyogaandmeditation.com/4-day-unlimited-yoga-packages/
Keep in mind that even the smallest amount of money could be a lifesaver. ❤
Today is new day. Full of endless possibilities. Make a difference. ❤
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